Saturday, July 29, 2006
29 JULY 2006 SATURDAY SUNNY
bored.
didnt go out today.stayed at home.didnt went for cell too, due to my stomach.kokliang messaged me le and he knew about it.haha.my neice was given birth an hour ago.haha.another family member added to my family tree.
i wonder:how come i was was anxious about getting that award? what was my purpose of getting that award? to prove to myself i was good or to show to others that i was good?.to make myself feel worthwhile to have done so much in the past or just to show to others.am i trying to ''show off'' to the other?so what if i got the award, will it prove to others i am better then the rest? but the truth is that i didnt get the award and so be it. it also doesnt prove that i am lousier then others.all these names was nominated by all the teachers, so by getting the award means that the teacher feels that you are good, it doesnt prove that you are really good.but in another point of view it just prove that you are few of the better ones.its fine with me not getting it because i feel that there is no use getting the award because it just simply mean that you are good in your own secondary school and it doesnt mean that you are the best. just my kind of thinking,maybe its just a way of making myself feel more comfortable.I AM LOVING GUITAR SO MUCH.someKINDofMAN.
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