Wednesday, May 16, 2007
5 week of poly.LIFE?
firstly i think i had gotten the little emo effect from know ray.
for the past few school days, there is still that little bit of emo going on. might be because everything seems the same everday. the same joke the same people, the same lecturer the same tutor, the same school and please in short the same thing.nothing special seems to be going on in poly. nothing exciting=( no cca no camps no nothing.
i guess getting my project done is going all over my head, expected the project to be done by today but things are just not right. maybe you can say its stress but i think otherwise.my mood jus totally change la. i cant stand the fact that everyone choos to slowly finish up their stuff when they can finish it like today? its the same over here and during secondary school, i am not saying my group member didnt do their best la just that i had a little high expectation on the work done by my group. but i guess i shoudnt be doing anything like this=( . and so don blame me for getting that little unusual during projects. i don like job been done last min.
and the most stupid thing is that the moment i thouh everything was getting just right in poly something just have to make me think otherwise.
ever since this week? i guess. attending school to me is a routine damn sucky routine. the need to drag myself to school. and what! i cant show my tiredness. because people in my class just isnt used to be been quiet. thats is where the fake smile have to come in. not really a fake smile but a forced smie instead. its tiring. the moment i get that little bit quiet, most of the people will ask."dale, you okay?" i am happy that they cared about me but...sometimes it gets rather irritating explaining yourself. but its better then people ignoring you. i really hope i can have a good rest, and when i feel tired i can just slack a little in class and no one will think its unusual but i guess its not going to happen.
see i told you emo is happening.=(
but thats i think.
although its emo here but i know i still have to treat everything the same. school is still school what can you expect?
i am tired of making people smile. i am tired of waking up early. i am tired of having people calling me dale! and ask me to do somthing for them. i am tired. i am tired of people thinking its my resposibility to do something when i didnt said i will doing. i am tired of wearing that little mask sometimes..
don expect too much from me.i am not perfect afterall i am just like anyone of you all.
emo here.but things are just totally different when i am out with the usual gang. everything just disappear=) i enjoying seeing my name on people's blog. especially those who said i actually play a part in their life, something more then just a simple friend and i am happy because there is more then one=)
and you! RAY! you must be thinking this guy is crazy because whenever you is emo i am high and when everythign seem right for you i become emo. and at this point of time i seriously want to say forget everything i say.but i know its not right=)
anyway i guess most people will be thinking, "i didnt expect dale to have this kind of thinking, and i didnt notice that." just too bad you all didnt know me good enough. otherwise you would be like failure who manage to know i am feeling that little werid in just a few sentence.
cleared my thoughs, feeling much better!
tomorrow a better tomorrow?
dale's feeling written down
theGREENfreak freaked 12:00 AM
