Wednesday, June 13, 2007
everything's confirmed.
and i am very sure it is a decision that i am going to regret forever.
the one i used to live for is gone.
so lets dig out a hole and just buried it in.
and perherps in years to come, i might just laugh at my foolish actions now.
but i am very sure that it wouldnt be a feeling i like to feel when that day comes.
the first feeling that strike was numb, i might be in the period of shock but i didnt know, but when i travel back home, i relise i wasnt so cold blooded afterall, afterall its was what i lived for in the past. with one of my purpose in life gone i wonder what will be the next. i tried to think of someone i can look for but to no success. the rest was all busy with their stuff and i got no one to turn too, how patheic can i get...
perherps i should have fought back but now its too late.
another item in my memory box, and the box is getting heavier and heavier, i wonder whats next?
nyp pal camp on thursday, i guess its a good way of getting everything out of my way and enjoy myself there. leave the reality and enter into the world of unknown. since i got nothing to look forward except the camp so just make it the highlight of this june hoilday which is just totally different from the past few years.
luck for me.. everything's changing.
just imagine all you like because you wouldnt know the truth behind all this rubbish because i am not really sure of it myself.
Trust is the word, but i am just leaving my trust with you as i will just bring myself out of all these rubbish because i know after a few months everything wouldnt be the same as before. its used to be family but i believe it wouldnt be in the future as it is nothing more then just a way of cultivating people.nothing more nothing less.
i got tonnes to talk about but it cant be written into words, its more of feeling then logical thinking. and seriously i am fine=D.
theGREENfreak freaked 1:47 AM
